will it be the same??

alright. i've another thing to ponder on. and i thought i'll share it with you guys (and girls). i suppose most of you would know that i'll be going to trinity for studies, SOON. yup. 7 days left to spend in singapore. and i've been thinking how would i feel back there. i mean now that i've been there, at least i'm familiar with the area. at least for the first two weeks. first two weeks=orientation for me=me seeing the ctss mentors. all except chris and belinda. bells is taking a year off and chris doesnt work for student services. yup. leaving ju kuong, jeffrey, jessie, maleik and lerato. i guess that's the only comfort that i'll have. for just those two weeks. and i know. after two weeks, everyone just goes back to their own lives. the mentors get back to lectures and tutorials at the uni. while for the rest of about 500 of trinity students, will start lessons. i dont know if i should see those two weeks as 'just another summer school' or a brand new experience. cos if i were to see it as 'just another summer school', it'll definitely be different. why different?? because you guys wont be there with me to share all those moments that i'll be having there. i know that there'll be tons of singaporeans there too. but somehow, my intuition tells me that it'll still be different, no matter what. it's simply not 'just not another summer school' for me. those people there will probably be stuck with me for the rest of the academic year. and probably even uni next year. and somehow, it seems like i'm starting summer school ALL OVER AGAIN. just without the rest of you. and i just fear everything will be different. somehow, i'm feeling the same as when i first set out for summer school. fear that things wont turn out fine and i wont find friends that i will want to keep for the rest of my life. honestly, i'm somewhat confused now.

but i know definitely this is no summer school. i'll be there for the rest of the year. not just two weeks.